“The seaweed is always greener in somebody else’s lake, you
dream about going up there and that is a big mistake. Just look at the world
around you, right here on the ocean floor, such wonderful things around you,
what more is you looking for?”
As I was listening to my favorite soundtrack this morning,
Disney CD, go ahead and laugh, dancing
around to Under the Sea, that light bulb popped up again and here I am.
Lately, I’ve been in a bit of a funk. Not too sure why, but
I have. I recognize it, but in true woman fashion, no offense ladies, I’ve been analyzing the shit out of what could be
causing it. Maybe I’m not getting enough sleep, maybe too much, maybe it’s
work, maybe I need more vitamins, exercise, travel,
maybe, maybe, maybe, blah blah blah.
Clearly, I don’t have an answer to what is going on, but what I do know is that
my mind and body is trying to tell me something.
The next few weeks, or however long it is going to take me,
I am going to hone in on what direction I need to take. I thought you would be
interested in just how I plan to do this.
Make a list. My
sister is weeping with joy and she has no idea why…. yet. Categorize
what is going on. All those thoughts that are going through your head are valid
for some reason. If they are simply thoughts passing through your mind that are
getting caught in the web, mark it down anyways because you’ll find out later
in the next steps whether or not they are just trapped flies or dinner for the
spider for later.
Where to start? I
always begin with one of the easiest and less stressful tasks on my list. By
the time I’m done figuring it out, I feel so inspired to move on to the next
one, thinking, “well that wasn’t so hard.” A trick I have learned
is to alternate the easy and tricky ones, this keeps me feeling motivated to
try the next phase.
As always, break everything down into baby steps. There is no point trying to tackle everything all
at once. Think of it like going into the batting cage and having 10 baseballs
flying at you all at the same time. You may hit one of those balls, if you’re
lucky, but the rest will likely hit you, hard and fast and the bruises start to
show.
Be confident. Making
choices is scary. I am ashamed to admit, I am one of those people, who would love to have
someone by their side all day long making life decisions for me. Walk up
to a puddle, or walk around the puddle? Around, you have work to go
to after this. Salad or that delish greasy
burger? Salad dear, you’ve had beef all week! Yes I have my trusty devil and angel on my shoulders
but they just banter back and forth. Really unhelpful if you ask me!
I know that I have my work cut out for me, but since I’m already
on this long road of enlightenment, I can continue untangling some of my deep,
uber messy knots. This is not easy. Sometimes you pull and pull, and with each
tug you’re trying to untangle the mess, but ultimately it just hurts. Remember
to take a breath and that you don’t need to shove that comb in to the middle of
the knot, but start at the edges and work your way through it. Yes it will be
uncomfortable, but eventually it gets easier and then the knot is gone.
Sebastian, you handsome Jamaican Crab, thank you for helping
another lost red head in need.
Over and out
