Happy Good Friday! It’s been a few weeks since my last blog. Life whisked me away and took me to each end of Vancouver Island and then up to the beautiful interior. I’m back now, physically and mentally, ready to get some rest and relaxation this weekend and eat tons of chocolate!
This Easter there will only be 2 visits from the Easter bunny, instead of the usual three visits. Why? We are conjoining Moufassa’s family with mine for Easter. This will be the first time they have met. Exciting, right?
I’ll let you in on a little secret before I go on with this blog, set the scene if you will. The last 2 weeks have been pretty rough for me. Ok, you’re all adults here, I can say what it really was, it was F#*@*^! Hell! This ice queen broke down once or twice and even had a couple anxiety attacks. I was feeling overwhelmed with organizing two back to back road trips, my vacation, doctors appointments, keeping up with my workload on the road, complications will all of the above AND of course the lovely Mother Nature stopping by simultaneously was the icing on the cupcake, nice timing bitch. The ground seemed to open up and swallow me whole.
I did attempt to write a blog in the middle of all that, 3 actually, which were not suitable for you, my angelic, positive readers. Yes, I’m ashamed to say, my demons came out and created a ruckus! On the way down, my horns came out and even yoga couldn’t calm this beast. My body became so rigid and tight; my mind couldn’t focus and my blood boiled instantly at the silliest of things.
The fiery pits of the underworld did eventually spit me back out and here I am. I felt like a solar system. My emotions and all the information I took in during this 2-week period were orbiting my head. Not only was I becoming dizzy watching it all circulate my head but it also threw off my equilibrium, I was completely off balance! Enough is enough, time to start flicking away the bits and pieces that were weighing me down! As the weights disappeared, I was finally able to take that much needed beautiful deep breath and feel the wonderful fresh crisp air that is Spring in Vancouver.
Back on topic, the upcoming family gathering. With all that fantastic energy I had going on, please note sarcasm, I had been dreading this relationship milestone for the last couple weeks. The more I thought about it, the more anxious I became. The more anxious I became, the deeper I went into the underworld. Thinking much clearer now, I am able to recognize that there was really no reason to be nervous about this event. Ugh, I really dislike realizing and admitting when I’ve been irrational!
What did I learn from this, besides the obvious fact that I become a devil once a month? I am stunned and a bit embarrassed to say, that I become a negative Nancy when I’m overwhelmed! Clearly I missed the memo that I am a positive person all month long!
To all my readers, remember that it is ok to be overwhelmed and acknowledge that inner bitch. It’s not always necessary to hold it all inside and do everything yourself. It’s good to ask for help and support. And as always, remember to keep breathing, it’ll keep you from turning into a scary red demon.
It'll be done and over with before you know it. You'll have good people around you to help out!! Just think, no matter what happens, you'll be sitting on the beach in some warm sun in less than 2 weeks! And you'll have good company ;-) (either way!)
ReplyDeleteHoping that you find some less stressful weeks ahead! Let me know if you need anything! xo
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